Sunday, January 27, 2013

20 seconds


this...i LOVE.

a great reminder in those times when we feel overcome by anxiety and fear of the unknown.

"...something great will come of it." 

♥ C

Friday, January 25, 2013

ponderings of a grateful soul.

A new year has recently begun.  I like New Year's. Even though life and time are still continuous, simply flowing from minute 23:59:59 in 2012, to minute 01:00:00 in 2013, and somewhere in there we draw a line.  As in a book, one chapter ends and a new one begins, but the previous chapters all the while still remaining relevant and influencing the one to come.

People are generally happier at the beginning of the year (at least the first couple days), which I LOVE :)  We reflect on what's passed, and have hope for what this year may hold in store for us.

I've never really been one to make resolutions, but God's been tugging on my heart to make some changes in my life--a renewal of heart and mind. In Romans we're reminded, "No longer conform to the patterns of this world; but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—His good, pleasing and perfect will."

So I've been praying for God to reveal the areas in which He sees that these transformations need to take place in me. Starting now, with this new year, what do I need to be doing to be continually moving toward the woman God is molding and shaping me to be? In the last week or so, in the midst of my regular every day life, I've heard His still, small voice. There's been two major areas that have repeatedly been brought to the forefront of my heart and mind--love and intentionality.

Love--
I have some amazing examples of this in my life. People who've shown me what it looks like to love purely, genuinely, and unconditionally. I want to be better at this. I am so quick to judge people and feel that, somehow, I am above them. I need to get into the Word and first understand God's love for me, before I will truly be able to love others. But I can start by simply opening myself up to people. By being willing to meet people wherever they're at. To listen to their story, to lift them up, to encourage them; even when it feels uncomfortable--even if it's not a convenient time for me--even if I know I won't be getting anything from them in return. Because that's at the root of what love is...it's putting someone else's well-being above my own. And that's what I need to be better at.

Intentionality--
Just this morning I started a new Jillian Michaels workout dvd (which kicked my butt), and she said something really good--"Transformation isn't a future event...it is a present action."  And while, yes, she was talking about a change in physical health, I thought it was so appropriate and such an awesome motivator for these changes I've had on my heart to make. Especially intentionality, which is 100% self-driven action....intentionality is acting with purpose. Even if my purpose is to relax, it's doing things in a way in which my heart, mind, soul are a part of the process.

I want greater intentionality in
:


...my relationship with Christ...
Right now my goal is simply to spend some deliberate quiet time with God each day, to fill more of my average days throughout the week with Him. I've been starting my mornings reading a couple short daily devotionals, which direct my reading and focus (they're ordered by date making it easy to stay on track). I've also been filling my day with more Christian music and less mainstream. It's AMAZING what a difference this makes. We think that it doesn't effect us, that we're just listening to the beat, blah blah blah....that's bologna. It effects the way we think, the things we say, how we look at others, etc. Even though not every Christian song is my favorite (I'm all for skipping to the next one on Pandora), it's important that we realize and take responsibility for the fact that what we watch and listen to truly effects the condition of our hearts. And even the simple adjustment of switching to the Christian station more often throughout the day, has made a great difference.

...my relationships with others...
As I've shared before, making new friends isn't the easiest thing in the world for me; but that aside, I have been blessed with some of the most amazing friends, and a better family than I could have ever dreamed up. I already have these relationships, and I felt God asking "what are you doing to maintain these?" Because relationships are work, they take deliberate action, and have to be maintained from both sides. But they are 100% worth it. And they add such beauty and joy to our lives. It's always so disheartening when I hear about someone who's had a friend who kind of just fell off the grid. A friendship that goes from 60 to 0 in no time at all. But I can't overlook the fact that this could just as easily be one of my relationships. I need to be willing to be the one who makes the first move, who calls someone up, who takes the initiative. Because if we were all waiting for someone else, it would all just dissolve right before our eyes. And what a tragedy it is to see the most beautiful gifts God's given us as people--the ability to be in relation with others--disappear from our lives simply because we didn't take the time to be intentional about it.

...my time...
This is not very easy for me.  And the more things I have going and the more disciplined I need to be with my time, the harder it is for me to do. I need to find a healthy balance between school, my job, church, small group, etc.  I need to be sure that my daily time with God doesn't get cut out, and that my relationships don't begin to suffer. I need to utilize my love for to-do lists and schedules, tone down my love for social networking and Pinterest :), and use everyday moments for something purposeful. And even on those days when it seems like there is just too much to do and not enough time, I will be comforted by the fact that like everything piece of history, this too shall pass. I'll get through it regardless, but how I do so is the question. 


My overall goal: to do it all these things with a little grace and a lot of integrity; with an ability to laugh and to not take myself or life too seriously; and for the condition of my heart to be pleasing to the Lord.


♥ C

Saturday, January 19, 2013

"10 Ways a Lie Grows"


"10 Ways a Lie Grows" -- daviddrury.com

A friend posted this article on Facebook. It has to do with Lance Armstrong and his recent confession to the accusations of taking performance-enhancing drugs (which everyone has seen and heard about through every form of media).

This article was refreshing though because it hit on a point that wasn't just relevant to Armstrong--it hits a tender spot everyone can identify with at some point or another in their lives.

Deception is a part of our human nature. We want to shelter our pride and avoid exposing ourselves to vulnerability. We think that the deceiving of others puts us in the driver's seat, calling the shots and getting ahead--and in the short term, that's often what happens.

But lying and cheating are never events that leave us unscathed--even if externally it goes unnoticed, inside the darkness grows and soon becomes all-consuming.  It slowly devours the "life" out of life.

Deception--the prior device of choice for freedom from a situation, has now become the sole thing to hold us captive in a deeper way than we could have ever imagined.  And more lies and stories won't free us (we've all tried)---it's only the truth, and taking responsibility, and allowing oneself to become vulnerable to those we've deceived---only that will allow us to be freed of its chains.

I still not even sure how I feel about the whole "Lance Armstrong" situation.  I do know though, that his choices to get ahead and take the easy way came back to bite him in the butt--like they always do--and that's going to drastically effect his life from now forward, especially being in such a high-profile position.  However, part of me is happy for him. At least glad that he shared the truth; I also imagine that he feels some sort of relief and freedom.

The truth, as painful as it may be, has a way of doing that.

Whatever the outcome may be for him though, overall this is an excellent reminder as we go through our daily walk, especially as a follower of Christ.  God called us to a higher standard of living. One filled, not with the lies and temptations of the world, but with truth and freedom in Him and His promises.

♥ C

Monday, January 14, 2013

the best.

Mmm...so. true. This is where I struggle so much.


♥ C

Friday, January 11, 2013

"Man's Search for Meaning"

theatlantic.com - "There's More to Life than Being Happy"

A friend of mine sent me ^this^ article yesterday. I've read it over several times, and am finding myself fascinated, intrigued, and most definitely challenged.  

I found it especially interesting what Frankl had to say about the European's viewpoint--that American's are continually ordered to be happy. But happiness isn't something to be pursued. It's something we obtain once we uncover the things that give our life a meaning and purpose. The things that push us each day to somehow make ourselves better than the day before.

The question we need to ask ourselves is not, "What can life contribute and give to me so that I will be happy?" but instead, "What can I give and contribute  to life and others so that I will find meaning and purpose?" 

Happiness and true joy are the result when this comes to fruition in our minds.

Saturday, January 5, 2013