Wednesday, July 17, 2013

stained glass mosaic.

We live in a world continually telling us to keep it together. Don't just let go and let yourself fall apart--if you have to cry, do it alone...keep your sins, fears, struggles, and frustrations to yourself...don't share your pain with others...save face...smile and keep on going.  We maintain a smooth surface, even though it's wearing thin with rough waters raging beneath, just waiting for a that last shred of pressure to break through and it all come gushing out.

But what's so wrong with falling apart?? Why do we run from vulnerability and letting ourselves really feel.  We tell ourselves that it's just easier to push it aside and keep moving forward--that exposing the dark crevasses in our minds will only create more problems and burden others. 

What lies the devil has caused us to believe...and how readily we do so.

One of my current favorite songs is "We Fall Apart" by We As Human.  Every time it comes up on my playlist, I'm reminded of the beauty in the messiness of life.  Like a stained glass mosaic--the broken pieces together make something far more unique and beautiful than if the glass was never broken at all.

A girl in my small group recently had a breaking moment and shared her longing for a fresh start; these last couple weeks as I've thought about her and have listened to that song, I've been reminded of some of the tangible reminders God has given us...the strength and beauty that can come from allowing ourselves to breakdown and ultimately breakthrough.  Is a remodeled house that's gutted down to the studs not built back up to be a more beautiful, stronger and sturdier home?  Does a broken bone not heal to be stronger and healthier than before it was broke?  Does a rose bush not need to be trimmed back after each spring to continue flourishing?  These processes can be (and usually are) messy, painful, arduous, lengthy, and will require help and care above that which we alone can provide.  Amen?

But we are exorbitantly resilient.  And the end result is magnificent.

It gives life substance and meaning.  It brings us closer to others and our Savior.  And we find that these pieces of our soul are our most powerful connection to one another.


It's magical and tragic, all the ways we fall apart...

♥ C



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